Dear Joker,

Hey joker, yeah you. Listen here, I’ve a word or two for you. It’s buried deep in my soul.

Hey joker, what is this life? Do you have a definition for me? Don’t toss me a dictionary, what are you thinking? Words of sequence and order, your mind is chaos and disorder. Rhyme and reason were never your strong points. Joker, joker, grant me a wish, will you? Master of unraveled yarn and insanity, grant me a precious wish. Define right and wrong. Give me something new, with a hint of old. Throw me something dangerous enough to send chills up and down my spine.

Hey joker, tell me a secret, tell me what your true desire is. Tell me dear joker, tell me. Is it buried deep in your soul? Or is it in your sick twisted old mind? Maybe in a new mind? Eyes twisted and hanging, they’re hanging on to the last shred of sanity they may have known. Maybe just maybe everything will be ok. What do you want dear joker?

Hey joker, want to tell me what I want? Where is my peace of mind among your forever going and crazy ideas? Is there room? Is there room for extremes? Is it love? Is it something more? A dog and a cat will fight like a hail storm. Do you see what I see? Feel what I feel? I’ve scars, you’ve scars. It hurts to smile dear joker, master of crazed laughter.

Hey joker, my mind is in pieces. Shattered. Thank you. All my logic has been proven wrong. Where do I go from here?

P.S. dear joker, I love this roller coaster ride. Is it new or old?

It's Been a While

It's been a while since my last post and I apologize. I've been moving once again and it seems that I just didn't seem to have the time for Nine Lives.

So in previous posts, I've gotten right to the point of how I'm feeling, but I'm not sure if they made sense to anyone? Give me some feedback, I'd love to hear your opinion.

The next thing I want to discuss... everything I have written here (unless said otherwise) is my own writing. I write about my encounters with life. The ups and downs of it. The middle-ground when things seem to mellow out. The everyday life. Or anything else that comes my way. :D

I'd also like to introduce myself, the name is Shay. Just Shay, no fancy last name or middle name. I'm twenty and I very rarely disclose my whereabouts. You're welcome to guess, but don't expect me to tell you if you're right or not. :)

Finally, I know the things I write about are a little on the ... gloomy side, I get alot of my inspiration when I'm sad or otherwise in a negative mood. This doesn't mean that I'm constantly moody. I'm usually quite happy, with a little help from my cats and music of course.

~gypsy